Kathryn told me this quote and its the main thing getting me through all this. Its from Sleepless in Seattle: "Well, I'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breath in and out all day long. Then, after a while I won't have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breath in and out... and, then after a while, I won't have to think about how I had it great [...] for a while."
I feel as though my entire torso, beginning at my heart (as cliche as it sounds thats how I physically feel), has caved in. I really do need to remind myself sometimes to breathe. The caved in chest is not the best breathing tool...
Today was the first day I was able to really cry in SC.
If you want details about how Dad died, there are news articles- though they hint at suicide- but the cops confirmed it later as murder. Also Robertscoville.com is where people can post about him, my family checks it everyday.
Usually I only use this for poetry- but I haven't been feeling that poetic lately and I wanted to let everyone (cough Joann) know how i was doing ;)
love, dani
5 comments:
i read this too so you might want to change it to "cough joann and jon"
and drew as well.
haha
well i have not completely mastered the editing already published posts...
so I'll do it here:
(cough joann jon and drew)
i was unaware of other readership- there were no previous comments
Cough at me as well, I haven't enough germs.
rewrite:
(cough joann jon drew and shannon marie)
wow its contagious
cough i love you... ;)
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